Sammy's Musings and Insights

I have to finally admit it--for a modern, independent girl like myself, I have an old-fashioned soul. I have old-fashioned ideals, not old-fashioned beliefs, mind you. I believe in pro-choice, I believe in woman's liberation, I am for gay marriage, I am a strong Democrat and I was once an atheist. In short, I am a modern day Maude Findlay. However, I do wish for the old-fashioned things as well, just not like all my friends ideals. I do want someone to love and love me back, but as the person I am. I look to have children one day, but I want there to be a father as well as a mother, and in a time and place where we can raise them in a stable environment. I also like an old-fashioned courtship, the type that is only in Cary Grant films, with maybe a bit of a Fred Astaire charm as well. Sort of like a Tom Hanks flirtation/dream as in "The Man with One Red Shoe". And the type of person I would like to share my life with, well, he would have to be intelligent, and arti...

I am going to start by telling you about a very strange dream I had the night before. I was at the bank making the usual Friday afternoon deposit for the library, same tellers, same bankers, same building. However, there were very many differences: 1)I was in there for three hours waiting to make the deposit. 2) some of the tellers were now actual loan officers, (mostly the men, but that is for a different entry later) 3) I felt a strange sadness waiting to give them our collection for the last week. And then when I finally got to the teller, while I was making the deposit and chatting with her, my personal banker came to the window to make an announcement to me: started off with some nonsense about how the bank will continue to provide quality service to me and to the library while advertising some sort of bonus or whatever, but then his speech changed and then I realized it was to congratulate me on a new job or promotion I received. While he was talking, I found myself getting e...

That's right--a chick lit novel, Something Borrowed by Emily Giffin. Chick lit is a new kind of genre for me, something I fairly like on occasion, but I never like to admit personally. I'm more into more serious, thoughtful book myself, but it never hurts to once in a while read a more fun-loving, original story about your life as well. Anyway, the heroine in the book, Rachel White, a 30 year old attorney in Manhattan, has just slept with her best friend's fiance, Dex, and has no regret over it. I wasn't sure I was going to have much sympathy for Rachel, basically for the misdeed itself, but after reading her point of view, and learned more about her "best friend" Darcy, who is a shallow, brainless twit, yet pretty and charming at the same time, the kind of girl we all hate, you can't help but feel more compassion for Rachel than Darcy, esp. since Rachel tries to do the right thing by first getting Dex out of her mind and be supportive to Darcy and her...

This I found in the Bible just now 1 Corinthians 7:25-40 . Not to hurt anyone who is married and happy, for those, God Bless You, but for us who are without spouses, unmarried, widowed, unattached in any way, this is a message of inspiration and hope and gives me strength and courage for the future. To the Unmarried and Widows 25 Now concerning virgins: I have no commandment from the Lord; yet I give judgment as one whom the Lord in His mercy has made trustworthy. 26 I suppose therefore that this is good because of the present distress—that it is good for a man to remain as he is: 27 Are you bound to a wife? Do not seek to be loosed. Are you loosed from a wife? Do not seek a wife. 28 But even if you do marry, you have not sinned; and if a virgin marries, she has not sinned. Nevertheless such will have trouble in the flesh, but I would spare you. 29 But this I say, brethren, the time is short, so that from now on even those who have wives should be as though they had none, 30 ...

I found this link today when looking up something on Dictionary.com. It encouraged me to try to do the impossible, perhaps it will for you as well. http://www.adultdatingadultdating.com/stories/02/getting-over-the-fear-of-asking-someone-out/ I know, another dating blog, but this actually finally makes perfect sense to my problem. I mean, I am not sure if I am looking to date this particular person, but at least it's a start, a place to begin. I mean, call me crazy, but the old fashioned flirting and wonderment of the first discovering an attractive man is a magical thing. Old fashioned romance is also a magical thing and one that is worth all the wait.

When you love something, set it free. If it comes back to you, it's meant to be. Or how about this one: to love is to let go. Or how about this little truth: absence makes the heart grow fonder. Is there some truth to these old sayings or they just that: sayings?

Like everything else, knitting is a slow and painful process to learn. The last couple of months I have been trying to master one simple stitch, the knit stitch, according to basic principles a very easy stitch. Well, this easy stitch I finally mastered after four months; after countless times of casting on stitches, pulling out yarn and beginning again after flubbing stitches, and endless times of throwing the needles on the floor, across the room, etc. I finally got it. Hopefully if I keep at this, if the instructions prove right, all these stitches will produce the long awaited scarf. I just feel sorry for the poor soul who will be the receiver of this scarf, because it will have mistakes in it, but everything in creation must have a few flaws in it right?