Sammy's Musings and Insights

I have been seeing a lot of plays in the Bay Area recently.  Last night, I was at the San Francisco Playhouse and saw something that was interesting that blew my mind about science and medication.  It was The Effect and I was amazed. Keep in mind, a few times I wondered if I would fall asleep because I was dead tired and have not been in the best mind-frame. The premise is this:  two people, Tristan and Connie, are participating in a research study in a controlled environment.  Connie is new to this kind of study and Tristan has participated in this kind of research before.  The psychologist supervising this study, Lorna, makes sure nothing, absolutely nothing, deters from getting the results she needs, including keeping the participants separated from each other, especially when they fall in love. Now, experiments are amazing things but also can be dangerous when handled improperly.  For one thing, not all experiments go to plan.  Things can hap...

It has been a while since I have been inspired to write.  To be able to get the inspiration to wake up and come to my computer (which I have been itching to do all day) is a beautiful sign.  What is bringing in me this inspiration?  Did it just happen by happenstance?  Could it be that International Women's Day has happened and seeing all of the stories posted on Google may have done it?  Could it be the latest protest against ICE may have had something to do with it?  Could it be I just want to get something written down on a piece of paper? Who the hell knows? All I know is today is the day I take my pen (or computer) and begin to write...

I know I have been incognito for a while.  It feels like I am waking up from a long, depressing sleep.  I have not had a lot to write about or discover.  Partly because my life isn't what it used to be anymore.  It used to be filled with literature and music and art and fun.  It still is in some ways, but I feel like I want more of it to come back.  I want it to fill me up like it used to.  I have been watching the Divergent series on DVD.  I remember the times I was getting involved in the story, loving the dystopian universe that was being discovered, watching Four and adoring him, wanting to be a part of Dauntless, and I wondered what happened to that woman who was doing so.  Three years certainly changes someone.  It happened to me.  What about the Hunger Games?  I finally watched the last of the series too.  Why did I wait so long in that respect?  Was I that depressed and broke I couldn't make time to go see...

As many of you know, I have an avid interest in genealogy.  In genealogy, there are those questions that you get answers right away and some you don't get the answer until later and those questions that become a mystery and cannot be solved.  In some cases, the questions you feel you have reached a dead end suddenly shed to light after all this time and you feel like you are on top of the world.  There have been a few instances this has happened to me where there were questions that felt like there were no answers to and finally by divine intervention, the answer is here and now.  There was a case two years ago in 2014 when I finally found out how and when my paternal grandmother had passed away and not only that, where she was living in Albuquerque when she finally passed.  This had been a mystery for years to the day I bagan my family tree in 2009 (or at least my version of the family tree).  At the time I thought I was at a dead end on my s...

After much deliberation of processing this for the last few weeks, it is time to say this. The Internet is a tool to use for research purposes, for reaching out to old friends, keeping in touch with family faraway, for entertainment and for practical uses such as shopping and education. It is not, and I reiterate, NOT, to be used as a way to stalk, threaten, intend to threaten or harm or frighten a person in any way, shape or form because someone is angry at someone else. ... Just recently, I have been the victim of this and this perpetrator knows who they are and what could be done to them if they do not stop (thank goodness not one of my friends/family here on Facebook). I have been calm, professional, and ladylike about this, but this was very unnecessary and inappropriate and with everything else I am coping with, this was over the line and unacceptable. People like this are part of the reason I don't date, go out to parties, go on social media or reveal private parts ...

I have been contemplating something for weeks that has been bothering me since it happened.  Along with that, I am still bothered by the attitudes surrounding it.  After many weeks, I am still at the same conclusion; not only that I am still baffled by why others would not agree with my conclusion.  A few weeks ago, I was moving my things from my apartment to a storage area and was scrambling to find people to help.  I was in a bind because I had to be out by a certain date and my landlord had already made arrangements for another tenant to move in.  (Along with that I could not afford the increase in rent which would have gone from $1050 to $1395.  I don't have it).  I originally called a moving company to see if they could do the job, however every weekend until my move out date was booked and a weekday would not work for me because I couldn't get the time off.  I did manage to get two people to help me, a old colleague and his friend/roo...