Betrayal

I have been trying to find a way to let this go, but in truth I just can't.  I am hurt and angered right now, and I have every right to be.  I was just hurt again by a classmate turned coworker turned friend turned enemy.  For the purpose of confidentiality, I won't say who she is, but if those of you who know me well, you know who I am talking about.

It's bad enough she doesn't see as someone with a little more authority than her and that she doesn't know good behavior from bad behavior but what is worse is the boundaries she has crossed and the ones she is still crossing.

Here are the boundaries she's crossed:
1) Telling my supervisor I have harassed her when this is a lie, and there are about 10 people who can account for this.
2) Telling a mutual friend that we have problems and when the time comes, we will work it out later, instead chooses to bring it to work.
3) Lecturing me on conduct when she is just as guilty, maybe even more guilty, of showing inappropriate behavior.
4) Going into my purse without my permission to slip a letter into it.
5) Using the most profane language possible to say I have accosted her in the workplace and done the same to others, when the evidence does not support this, and to threaten to make sure I am fired if I don't leave her alone.
6) Even after being dismissed from the job for whatever the reason was, she still comes around to visit others, when she well aware she is not allowed in staff areas during visits or hold personal conversations with others during their work hours.

Of course, I am going to be bitter about it, and hold this against her.  I have just cause to be furious.  By doing what she does, she is undermining anything I am feeling, or what I say.  And that by making personal visits, she is disrupting my workplace.  I don't care if she feels differently or not, or if she thinks she is doing no such thing.  She had her chance to become better and she failed miserably and she didn't think of me at all.  Until she grows up and understands the repercussions of what has happened, I will be as bitter as I want to be.

I should have broken our friendship a while ago, but I didn't.  I should have done it on Christmas, I had a letter ready to go, never sent it out.  I don't know why but I guess part of me wanted to give it a separation period.  And I thought things were becoming allright.  I was wrong.  Really wrong.  I have learned my lesson in friendships: keep them at a safe distance, you don't get hurt.

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